If love can be booked

Chapter 47 Breakup-3

Third floor, the door is not locked, is it him?

In a corner of the sofa, he sat sideways, as if waiting for her. When did he come? Yesterday or today? His beard and hair were scattered on his face.

"Wan Ning? Are you back?" Hearing the sound coming from the door, he stood up from the sofa.

"Where have you been?" She didn't come home all night?

"Do you still care where I go?" Her tone was full of resentment. Do you care where I go?

Five years have passed, and I have been guarding our love for five years. But yesterday, you suddenly told me that you were going to get married. How could you think I wouldn't be sad? I am not as strong as you think.

"Wan Ning, don't do this, I..." He never thought of hurting her, and he once thought that he would slowly fall in love with her, but love is really not just about being touched. Su Yu, I'm sorry, the love you entrusted to me, ended up being let down.

"Let's break up." Break up. I once thought I would never say these two words.

"I think I can't protect our love anymore." In the bridal shop, you gently touched her nose with a happy smile on your face. Thinking of your happy look, my eyes can't help but sour. But your happiness has nothing to do with me.

Because I don’t love you, I can’t see your happy face.

"I always lie to myself that as long as I work harder, you will always see me." However, this is just an excuse for me not wanting to face the reality. No matter how hard I try to love you, no matter how much I change for you, I can't change the fact that you don't love me.

"You are tired, I am tired too, really tired." I can't remember how long it has been since we sat together quietly like this, talking about each other's thoughts and recent lives. However, this time, we said the two heaviest words, break up.

"I thought I would fall in love with you, I have been trying hard to fall in love with you, but in the end we still couldn't make it to the end." I once vowed to him that I would take care of her and protect her for the rest of her life. But how can love last long just by being touched? If it is not true love, can we still be friends?

"I fell in love with her. I knew that maybe I was not qualified to fall in love with anyone, but she walked into my heart without any warning." Whenever I think of her, the corners of my mouth always rise unconsciously, revealing her charming and lovely smile.

"I have always treated you as my sister because I still can't fall in love with you." He loves you deeply and takes good care of you like a treasure, but I can't do the same as him no matter what. Su Yu, I'm sorry, I failed your trust.

"Sister?" What a nice word for sister? But you know? You have never been my brother.

"I'm not a sister, and you're not a brother." No, you're not a brother. I've always regarded you as the most important person in my life!

"Are you telling me that everything in the past was the kindness of a brother to his sister?" Chu Haoyang, you know very well that I can't be willing to be just your sister!

"I'm sorry, I should have told you earlier, I thought..." Any reason, any excuse, seems pale.

"I didn't expect things to turn out like this, I'm sorry." I didn't know that things between us would come to this point today, I thought time could dilute everything.

"I'm sorry?" I'm sorry, these three words seemed so pale and powerless. At that moment, all the obsessions in my heart were shattered like bubbles, and the once rock-hard wall of my heart also collapsed in an instant.

"Actually, I think you don't understand me at all." I walked to the window silently, looking at the still blue sky outside, but my heart was filled with endless sadness and loss.

"You know what? I have nothing but you. So every year on my birthday, my only wish is that you can be by my side." With you by my side? However, every time it ends in disappointment.

"I always wait for your call out of habit. Only hearing your voice can make me feel at ease. However, every time I wait until I fall asleep unconsciously, and when I wake up the next day and look at my phone, I can only laugh at myself helplessly." I never turn off my phone, and I dare not shut it down, for fear of missing your sudden call and worrying that you can't find me. But the facts prove that all this is just my wishful thinking. It turns out that you never thought about contacting me.

"You promised to have dinner together. I carefully prepared a sumptuous meal and waited for you with joy, but in the end I fell asleep. After dawn, I was still alone, curled up in a corner of the sofa." And your so-called socializing was just because there was another her by your side.

"I always think that you don't love me, maybe it's just because there is some distance between us." Suddenly, I found that I could no longer find any excuses to deceive myself. How far is this so-called distance?

"Alone, in a strange city, I feel sad and think too much. I want to hear your voice, but how many times have I been transferred to voicemail?" Pretend that you are still by my side and have never left, pretend that you love me, do you know? Deceiving yourself like this will make your heart hurt.

"The sidewalk, on the left, lacks the warmth you give me." Looking at the crowds of people holding hands and crossing the road together, my heart is full of envy. How I look forward to hearing you say those words that will reassure me: "Don't be afraid, I will always be here."

"I can't see your expression when you receive the gift, so I can only use my imagination to guess your mood when you see it." Your gifts are all carefully selected by me for a long time, but I can't see your reaction when you receive the gifts. All this is just because of being busy, because of your absence, or because you don't care.

"You and she, standing side by side, holding hands, she nestled in your arms, I forgot how to cry?" In an instant, an illusion came to my mind, as if the building that I spent five years constructing collapsed into countless pieces in an instant because of her.

"Haoyang, I'm tired, really tired." At this moment, she realized that there were so many words in her heart that she wanted to tell him, but he was always too busy to listen to her and could only walk hurriedly.

"Wan Ning?" He couldn't help but feel a little surprised and a little surprised. He never realized that he was so needed by her. She was right, he really knew very little about her.

"I agree to break up, Chu Haoyang, I don't love you anymore." I have made up my mind not to love you anymore, and I will never love you again from now on. I didn't know that my love would bring you such a heavy burden.

"I am willing to let go, to give you freedom, and to let you pursue happiness." Eventually you have to let go, even though it's difficult.

"In the past, I have always lived in his shadow, unwilling to leave, and unable to leave." My heart was filled with fear, because I knew nothing about the future. I was in a panic and just wanted to hold on to someone tightly, thinking that as long as you were by my side, I would not feel lonely. I was wrong.

"Now, I have decided to try to accept some unknowns, no matter what the future holds." But I know that my life will be missing something that belongs to you. I will no longer collect everything that belongs to you. I will give up completely and will not be a bother to you.

"I will always remember that there was once a person whom I loved deeply, for whom I cried and laughed." There was once a person whom I loved deeply, and I said breakup with a smile. I think I was still not brave enough.

"Wan Ning, I'm sorry, but I sincerely hope that you will be happy, even though I'm not the one who can give you happiness." In fact, I already knew that I couldn't give you the happiness you expected, but facing your eager eyes, I couldn't refuse. I'm sorry.

"Can you hug me again?" Perhaps this will be our farewell? Hug? Does this mean this is the last time we will hug each other?

She leaned gently on his shoulder, tears pouring out like a dam breaking, soaking his shirt, while he stood quietly, motionless.

I don't remember when he said goodbye, he turned and left, leaving the room dark. Only now did I realize that time had quietly passed until evening. There was no light in the room, and the whole space seemed unusually quiet, as if it was integrated with the heavy mood at the moment. I originally thought that the night would be as dark as I imagined, but it was not the case. The scene in front of me did not become darker, but my eyes were slightly painful.

The floor near the sofa was a little cold.

I curled up there, not wanting to move, just staring blankly at the sky, letting my tears flow freely like a flood. I have long been accustomed to the taste of tears, they seem to have become a part of my life.

In a faraway place, the phone rang intermittently, sometimes pausing, sometimes ringing again. However, I was indifferent to the sound, as if the whole world had nothing to do with me. I don't know when I slowly closed my eyes and fell into a long dream.

In my dream, I came to a vast seaside. The golden beach was shining brightly under the sunshine. There were a series of deep and shallow footprints on the beach. Who left those footprints? A little boy's back appeared in the distance. He stood there alone with his back to me. And I kept running, as if I was chasing something. Suddenly, I found that my shoes were gone, but I didn't stop.

When I woke up from my sleep, the sky was already slightly bright, and the breeze blew gently into the windowsill, bringing a hint of coolness. I rubbed my sleepy eyes and recalled the dream I had just had.

The same scene, the same plot, this dream has been appearing again and again recently.

Sometimes, I can’t tell whether this is a dream or a real existence?

In my dream, I desperately chased after the boy, running barefoot on the beach. As he walked further and further away, I burst into tears and shouted at the top of my lungs for him to come back.

Tears flowed down my cheeks, one drop at a time. You walked out of my life, and I acquiesced.

My heart hurts so much.

I don't know if it's because I lack you in my life or because I lack a real reliance? Or is it because I am full of fear about the future or lack of confidence in myself? This feeling is like a carefully woven dream that has been shattered, and the walls that besieged myself have collapsed. I can only shout for help, but no one can hear me.

I shed tears silently like a fool, my legs gradually became numb, and I didn't want to move my body. I just quietly thought about those illusory thoughts. Tears, probably because they couldn't bear the endless pain of lovesickness in my heart, chose to slide down my cheeks. And my heart, like a ship that can never reach the other side of happiness, can only be stranded on the beach helplessly.

From day to night, and then from night to day, I can no longer remember how long I have been sitting here.

Tired of crying, I fell asleep. I saw you in my dream, and then I woke up suddenly. After waking up, I burst into tears again. My eyes have become dry and swollen. Maybe all this is no longer important, even the feeling of hunger has been forgotten.

I have forgotten yesterday and today. I just hope I can continue sleeping like this and never wake up.

The phone rang, then stopped abruptly. After a brief silence, the ringing started again.

I want to forget the whole world, and I want to forget you completely.

I learned that life is not eternal

Only a brief moment, a moment that could disappear at any moment

In the concept of time, I understand that love is not forever

There is only a fleeting beauty, which can end at any moment

I wonder if I can feel the beauty of the moment in the breath of love

Just that moment, I can regard it as eternity in my life