Hanyu's dream of rebirth

Chapter 22

"White clouds float by in the sky, birds fly by in the sky, ants crawl by on the ground, fish swim by in the water, but where are you? Where have you walked? The beauty I miss in my heart, the love I miss day and night , where are you staying? Why can't I see you? Why am I not favored? I pray, I hope, in my dream, you never come..."

An Keru is recording songs in the studio. This is the first single released since he released his first album, "Have You Been Here?" "This is a lyrical song with a sad and poignant tune and a soothing and beautiful rhythm. The love and longing that cannot be expressed in the song are deeply rooted in the hearts of the people. The softest part of the heart is touched and makes people move.

An Keru's voice was light and clear, with a hint of confusion, and a touch of sadness revealed, which was a kind of shock.

The recording of the song went smoothly, and the teacher felt very satisfied. He looked at the passionate performance of An Keru with full of admiration. Park Donghao also nodded proudly from the side. Although he didn't know much about these professional things, the teachers were very satisfied. He Naturally, I am also satisfied.

After recording the song, An Keru still had to go to the production team. He had already started filming TV dramas, and the company regarded him very seriously. He had just released his first album, released a single, and helped him accept TV dramas.

Since TVXQ went to Japan, An Keru has more schedules and announcements, and the time is tightly arranged every day, but every day he has contact with several people from TVXQ, occasionally making phone calls, or posting videos on the Internet, They are all talking about some very ordinary things, talking about what they did today, or what beautiful places they went to, but they are usually rushing to make announcements or recording programs.

And when they heard that An Keru had already accepted the filming of a TV series, they were also very happy and congratulated him.

An Keru thinks this kind of life is also very good, although busy, but very fulfilling, and being able to chat with his favorite brother Jae Zhong every day is really a very happy thing.

So these days, he has been going to the crew to film, rushing around for activities, publicity, and signing meetings, recording programs, or shooting commercials. In short, all his time is arranged very full.

The TV series he filmed told the story of a cute and stupid poor boy. Although the poor boy played by An Keru was poor, he was very talented. He studied design and graduated from a high school. Because I was very dull, I couldn't find a good job. Later, a chance encounter changed his life. He met a lady from a rich family. The lady thought he was cute and cute. She was 20 years old. She has a baby face so he looks like he is sixteen or seventeen years old. She thinks this person is very interesting, so she brings him back to the company and finds him a job, and what happens next is almost strong and has a bad taste Miss, I slowly fell in love with this poor boy who is talented and has many advantages, but the poor boy was really dumb and never knew it, so many interesting and funny things happened during the story, and there was also a third party involved, But they were all driven away by the domineering lady. Although the poor boy didn't know it all the time, of course the two of them had a happy ending in the end, and the rich lady took him back home.

It’s a clichéd story that is very popular in Korea, and the filming effect is also very good, and the actor who plays with An Keru is a famous senior, An Keru learned a lot, and was also affected during the filming. Very little NG, the director is very satisfied.

This TV series has a total of [-] episodes and was filmed for three months. It was later broadcast on major TV stations, which added a lot of popularity to Encore.

In the middle of this kind of busyness, when An Keru and TVXQ only communicated by phone, and occasionally called aunt and uncle, the fulfilling and happy days passed quickly.

What is worthy of celebration and congratulations is that An Keruo's new album has been recognized by everyone, and his own efforts and persistence have also won applause from everyone. At the annual Golden Record Awards Ceremony, he won the most popular award. Newcomer Award, this is the greatest encouragement for all his hard work this year.

When he came to the stage to accept the award, his mind was almost blurred. He only remembered that he thanked a lot of people, and then walked off the stage in disbelief. He never thought that he would win the award, because in his mind I have never had this concept, and I have never thought about how he will win an award. It is incredible.He only remembers to be friends with TVXQ and the others, and only wants to get closer to Kim Jaejoong. He just regards being an artist as his daily job, not his glory.

At the end of the year, he went to Japan to visit a few people from TVXQ. At that time, TVXQ was still recording a program, so he was waiting outside. He didn't tell a few people about his visit to Japan this time, because he wanted to give them a surprise.

Sure enough, when the few of them came out, they saw An Keru sitting there with shocked and surprised expressions.

"Why did you come here? Why didn't you tell us?!" Jin Zaizhong walked over, hugged him with one arm in surprise, and rubbed his head with the other hand.

"Brother Zhong, your hair is messed up, don't rub it!" Although An Keru complained, she smiled sweetly and brightly at the corner of her mouth, and turned her gaze to the other people, "Brother Yunhao, Brother Junxiu, Brother Youtian , Brother Changmin, I came to see you, are you happy?"

Seeing his proud and praising expression, several people nodded, Zheng Yunhao smiled, "I really didn't expect Xiao Keru to come, when I saw you, I was startled, I thought it was a hallucination."

"Yeah, you actually came here at this time, don't you have the time?" Junxiu walked over to sit down and asked.

"Of course I have time to come and see you. I haven't seen you for so long. I miss you so much, haha." An Keru said, his well-behaved appearance softened the hearts of several people.

"If only I had a younger brother like you." Park Yoochun suddenly said with emotion.

Hearing that, Jin Zaizhong had an opinion, and glared at Park Yoochun angrily, "Don't take my word for it, Xiao Keruo is my younger brother."

"Yeah, yeah, you're both a fan and a younger brother, the two of you have the best relationship, we're all on the sidelines." Park Youchun said coolly, but his eyes flickered narrowly.

Shen Changmin suddenly said, "Not long ago, Xiao Keru should have won the Newcomer Award in the Golden Record, congratulations, what a year's achievements."

"Thank you Brother Changmin, I will continue to work hard, haha." An Keru was very happy, and his whole body was filled with excitement.

"You said you still filmed a TV series, right? It must be very tiring. No wonder I don't think you are very fat, but you are still as thin as before." Jin Zaizhong looked at An Keru and said dissatisfiedly, "I remember I said , the next time I see you, don't give me such a thin one."

"But I already eat a lot, I just can't gain weight, but I heard people say that eating eggs every day and tonic soup may be effective, so I have been eating for a while." An Keru explained.

"Ah, what kind of physique do you have? No matter how much you eat, you won't gain weight? But it's scary to be so thin. I'm afraid that you'll faint all of a sudden." Jin Zaizhong sighed worriedly.

An Keru rolled his eyes, "Shouldn't everyone be happy when I came to see you? Why is the atmosphere so low all of a sudden? Aren't everyone happy when I come? I'm so sad."

"What? I'm not unhappy, it's Brother Zaizhong talking about it, so he should be blamed." Park Yoochun said.

Several people looked at Jin Zaizhong as if complaining, and Jin Zaizhong quickly raised his hands in surrender, "Okay, it's my fault, then we can go back?"

"Let's go."

"I bought a lot of ingredients, and I will make delicious food for everyone later." An Keruo said.

"Great, let's go back quickly." Shen Changmin urged.

"I want to eat stewed chicken with mushrooms, twice-cooked pork, and spicy shrimp. It's best if it's spicier." Kim Jaejoong started to order.

"Then I want to eat braised pork, sesame, mapo tofu, and fried pork." This is Jin Junxiu behind.

"I can do anything, as long as I can eat enough." This is Shen Changmin.

"I don't care, let me sleep first." This is Park Yoochun.

"Where's Brother Yunhao?" An Keru asked, feeling strange that he didn't hear Zheng Yunhao's voice.

Zheng Yunhao came back to his senses, "There are already so many dishes, anyway, I just want to eat delicious food."

"Oh, but I have already bought the ingredients, and I haven't bought some dishes, hehe." Anke said with a bad heart, "And now there are no fresh ingredients to buy outside, so everyone has to eat the ones I bought. .”

"What? Why is this? It made us order a meal for a long time." Jin Junxiu complained.

Jin Zaizhong looked at An Keru who was snickering next to him with amused expression, and shook his head speechlessly.

After returning to TVXQ's dormitory, An Keru immediately started cooking, and Kim Jaejoong helped out. The two chatted and worked, the atmosphere was very warm and warm.

An Keru thought, if only he could be like this with Brother Zaizhong for the rest of his life, he wanted to help Brother Zaizhong cook for the rest of his life, he wanted to play with Brother Zaizhong without boundaries for the rest of his life, he wanted to be with Brother Zaizhong A lifetime of laughing and chatting, pity...

They will eventually separate, and in Zhongge, he will find his other half who can really do these things for the rest of his life. He will have his own life, and he will find that person elsewhere, and that person will not be him.Brother Zhong will care more and more about that person, and slowly forget himself, and they can only be friends in the end.

Thinking about this, An Keruo didn't know whether it was like in the previous life, it was better to be a girl who only had dreams and could only look up to the distant Jin Jaejoong, or to be a boy who could stay by Jin Jaejoong's side but could never go any further Better.

Nothing is the best of both worlds, there are always flaws.He should know enough...

Tears fell quietly, and crystal clear water droplets splashed on the white plate and submerged in the gaps between the chopped food.

Anke lowered her head and wiped away her tears, not letting Jin Zaizhong notice something was wrong.

Jin Zaizhong looked at the attentive An Keru, he looked warm in the apron, his soft hair was a little long, and it was hidden in the collar, covering his fair neck, and he had a thin and slender figure, a cute and beautiful face, An Keru's gentle and introverted personality is really too rare, thinking about it, his heart softens a little.

"Whoever marries you in the future will definitely be very lucky." Jin Zaizhong said so, with a hint of envy in his tone.

An Keru froze for a moment, and then said in a seemingly relaxed manner, "Really? Brother Zaizhong is also very good at cooking, and whoever marries Brother Zaizhong must be very happy." stop.

"Haha, it's still early, I don't have the heart to think about it now."

"Well, Brother Zai is still very young, let alone me. If Brother Zai hadn't mentioned it today, I probably wouldn't have such an idea."

"Why? Don't you feel like having a girlfriend? You should have the idea of ​​wanting to have a girlfriend when you are an adolescent like Xiao Keruo." Jin Zaizhong asked wonderingly.

"Don't talk about me, what about you, brother Zhong? You should have had a girlfriend before, right?" An Keru asked suddenly.

"Ah, of course I did, but we broke up later, and now I don't think about it at all." Kim Jaejoong replied.

"Did Brother Zai feel very sad when we broke up?"

"My heart hurts, yes, after all, it was someone I liked at the time, and thinking about it now, I still feel that sour feeling."

"Really?" An Keru murmured, his eyes showed a kind of sadness, a kind of unwillingness, and the desolation of only accepting his fate. Tears almost came out of his eyes, but he held back.

He shouldn't think about these things at all, things that are obviously impossible to have an ending, he shouldn't have such extravagant hopes, he shouldn't be greedy...

But who can stand it?Obviously the person I have always liked is by my side, obviously very close, but it is doomed to have no results, they can only be brothers and friends, just because he is not a girl.

How could two boys be together?What's more, they are in this entertainment industry without privacy, and what's more, this is simply his own wild thinking and wishful thinking.

People in the entertainment industry can't have scandals. Once they get involved in unacceptable scandals, they are likely to be buried in the snow, and they may not be able to stand on the stage again. It doesn't matter to him, but what about Kim Jaejoong's dream?

He can only bury everything in his stomach, and then watch it rot, and finally become highly poisonous, corroding everything about him.

He had sunk in, and it was too late to get out.