The Big Shot is Also Crazy About Me Today

Chapter 1254 - 1177: The Stabbing Pain in My Heart

Shi Jiaojiao asked Shi Nuan if she dared to come out and meet, full of provocation, just as expected.

Shi Nuan had long since realized that the so-called apology when Shi Yuanbo took Shi Jiaojiao to the hospital that day was all fake.

Shi Jiaojiao never thought she was wrong, or maybe to her, everything that had happened to Shi Nuan was nothing more than what she deserved.

Shi Nuan had no interest in having any contact with Shi Jiaojiao, but she still took the bait when faced with Shi Jiaojiao’s provocation.

If Shi Jiaojiao was looking for her, there had to be a reason, and she was very curious about that reason.

Shi Nuan agreed; the appointed time was noon the next day, at a Western restaurant that Shi Jiaojiao had booked.

After saying all that, Shi Jiaojiao didn’t linger; she hung up the phone right away, rare for her to be so decisive and straightforward.

In the past, it would’ve been strange if Shi Jiaojiao didn’t tack on a few cutting remarks about Shi Nuan, which made Shi Nuan curious. She felt that the person who really wanted to meet her might not actually be Shi Jiaojiao.

Or perhaps someone had given Shi Jiaojiao pointers and told her to rein in her temper.

Shi Nuan’s guess wasn’t wrong; this time Shi Jiaojiao did rein in her temper, but it wasn’t because someone had coached her—it was because there was someone else sitting beside her.

That person was Shen Zui.

No matter how much she hated Shi Nuan, no matter how much she disliked her, in front of Shen Zui, Shi Jiaojiao still didn’t dare to say much to Shi Nuan.

She put away her phone and looked at Shen Zui, a little bleakness in her eyes as she said, "I did what you said and helped you set up a meeting with Shi Nuan. It’s just, Shen Zui, I don’t understand why you still can’t forget her even now. She’s already pregnant with someone else’s child..."

Shen Zui frowned, and his expression darkened immediately.

He said, "I can’t completely trust your words. I have to see Nuannuan in person..."

"But even if you see her, you can’t ask her about it, can you? I told you, she herself doesn’t even know, and besides..."

Shi Jiaojiao’s gaze flickered, and she continued, "Besides, it doesn’t seem like a good thing to let her know either. After all, her child is gone; it’s not exactly something good..."

Shen Zui’s face grew even darker, and he didn’t speak.

Shi Jiaojiao carefully shifted to sit beside him and looked at his handsome profile. "Actually, Shen Zui, have you ever thought that maybe what you feel for Shi Nuan isn’t love, but just a kind of unwillingness? After all, you were the one who left back then..."

Shen Zui’s cold eyes suddenly shot over, startling Shi Jiaojiao.

Then Shen Zui stood up and walked straight toward the door.

Shi Jiaojiao froze for a moment, then quickly called his name and asked where he was going.

Shen Zui stopped at the door, his back ramrod straight. He spoke faintly: "It’s late. I have to go back. You should head home early too."

Shi Jiaojiao was slightly stunned. Shen Zui telling her to go home early—was that... concern?

A strange warmth rose in her chest, but before it could spread, Shen Zui had already opened the door and walked out.

Shi Jiaojiao called out once, but Shen Zui didn’t respond. Very quickly, the room was left with only Shi Jiaojiao.

Shi Jiaojiao curled her hand into a light fist, the loss in her eyes gradually cooling into frost.

She believed that as long as she persisted, everything she wanted would eventually become hers.

Whether it was shares in the Shi Family, or Shen Zui, it was all the same.

...

After leaving, Shen Zui went straight to his car and drove off.

He was driving himself, the car moving very fast, speeding along for over ten minutes before finally stopping.

He looked at the somewhat desolate night around him, and at the city lights flickering desolately in the lonely darkness.

For a moment, a sharp pain stabbed through his chest.

Was it really just unwillingness?

But if it was only unwillingness, why had he been thinking about Shi Nuan the whole time during those more than three years abroad?

If it was only unwillingness, then all those songs he wrote—who were they for?

If it was only unwillingness, then this heartache he felt at this very moment—what was it for?

He had simply fallen in love with someone who didn’t love him enough, that was all.

In love, maybe there’s no such thing as equality, but in the end, the one who falls in love first is always at a disadvantage.

Back then, he didn’t understand this; he thought that by leaving, by using this so-called threat, he could prove his place in Shi Nuan’s heart.

But in the end, he failed. When he left, he didn’t walk away with pride or resolve.

He left carrying nothing but failure and disappointment, inside and out.

He had been too young to understand that if you truly want a girl to fall in love with you, to depend on you and fully belong to you, what you should do is cling to her side and never leave.

No matter what happens, you can’t leave.

Stay where you’re closest to her, watching her, and letting her see you too.

Maybe she won’t see you once or twice, but one day, at some moment, she will see you!

Maybe he did have that unwillingness, because once, he had been standing so, so close to having Shi Nuan.

If he’d just taken one more step forward, they might have been together for a lifetime.

But instead of stepping closer, he chose to go far, far away.

Nuannuan, I have my own unwillingness, but what about you?

If you had never met Song Yansheng, would there have been even a moment—just a single moment—when you would have tried to stop me?

...

The next day, Shi Nuan went to work at the Shi Family as usual. Her workload was still relatively light.

Shi Yuanbo had already given instructions that she wasn’t to be given too much work, to give her plenty of time.

Shi Nuan didn’t feel that her body was particularly uncomfortable; it was just that, every so often, her heart felt hollow.

That hollowness would transmit to her body, leaving her wrapped in long, inexplicable sadness.

Around noon, seeing that it was about time, Shi Nuan took the initiative to call Shi Jiaojiao.

After ringing for a while on the other end, Shi Jiaojiao picked up. "You on your way?"

Shi Nuan paused before saying, "Should I grab a cab over, or are you coming to get me yourself?"

...

Shi Jiaojiao arrived quickly. Shi Nuan went downstairs during her lunch break and waited for about five minutes before Shi Jiaojiao showed up.

Once she got into Shi Jiaojiao’s car and sat in the passenger seat, the feeling was... subtle.

Come to think of it, this was the first time she’d ever ridden in Shi Jiaojiao’s car. If Ji Xia knew, she’d probably say Shi Nuan had grown bold.

Speaking of boldness, Shi Nuan didn’t feel particularly brave, but she was always afraid that someone might use Shi Jiaojiao as a pretense to arrange a meeting with her.

She had to at least see Shi Jiaojiao face-to-face; even if there were other people, Shi Jiaojiao had to be there!

Shi Jiaojiao was driving a BMW sedan. When Shi Nuan turned eighteen, Shi Yuanbo had given her a MINI.

Back then, it hadn’t yet occurred to Shi Jiaojiao to even get a driver’s license. As a pampered young lady, there was always a car to pick her up and drop her off wherever she went, which was very convenient.

But once she saw that Shi Yuanbo had bought a car for Shi Nuan, she wanted one too.

Shi Yuanbo wasn’t exactly playing favorites—after all, Shi Jiaojiao’s birthday wasn’t far off from Shi Nuan’s.

So he simply agreed to get Shi Jiaojiao a car as well.

Originally, Shi Yuanbo wanted to give her a MINI too, but Shi Jiaojiao didn’t like it. She wanted a BMW and had her eyes on one that cost around 1.2 million.

1.2 million wasn’t much to Shi Yuanbo, but such a huge gap between the two daughters would give outsiders something to talk about.

He didn’t agree, but how could Shi Jiaojiao give up so easily?

With Li Guirong egging her on from the side, Shi Jiaojiao eventually drove this BMW home.