back to his time

Chapter 1

I am a small clerk in a company. I have no skills, but my family background is not bad. My parents are very capable. I was born with no worries about food and clothing.I even look for jobs out of interest.

Over the years, I have had a pretty good life, I have people who love me, and people I love, but I have not been happy.

I have very severe insomnia, and I was unable to close my eyes to sleep for a month. I was tortured by insomnia in that month, so that my parents were shocked when they saw me.My body is no longer in shape.Skinny, with swollen eye bags, it was as uncomfortable as a death in the family.Although after my mother took good care of me, my body recovered 70.00% quickly, but my insomnia was still incurable.

My parents looked at me for a long time and sighed softly.

That night, I suffered from insomnia again. I lay on the bed with my eyes closed for a long time, rolled over many times, and fell asleep drowsily until I was so exhausted.

Ah Fei.

I woke up in the middle of the night, staring at the huge room alone in a daze.

I have had many dreams over the years, but the person in the dream is always the same person.Even if that person is turned into ashes, I still remember him.

Such exquisite eyebrows and eyes, such gentle facial features, are only possessed by that person.There is no one who is exactly like him in this world.No matter how similar the appearance is, that person's temperament is something that no one can learn.

Miaoxiu.

Chewing the name silently in his mouth.

Since this person's accident, I haven't said this name for a long time, and now I am not very familiar with it.

I have known Miao Xiu for many years. We have known each other since childhood. It has been 20 years.

Over the years, my life has been going smoothly, I am used to no one being restrained, I just idle around every day, I have had many girlfriends, I can’t count them with two hands, but they are all just for fun.I have always regarded Miao Xiu as my good brother, I pick up girls, Miao Xiu helps me clean up the mess, and drives away all the women who are interested in my money.Until later, after I discovered Miao Xiu's thoughts on me, I had a complete falling out with him, distanced myself from him silently, and then cut off communication by taking the opportunity of going abroad for further study.

Even when I met Miao Xiu again after returning to China, I still looked at him with a smile on my face, but I lost the original sincerity, and everything was fake.

At that time, Miao Xiu became a hot star in the entertainment industry with his outstanding appearance and good acting skills. As long as Miao Xiu appeared, everyone would be empty-handed immediately, and Miao Xiu's career could be said to be booming.

I'm taken aback by who he is now.

When I met him, he was accompanied by two or three assistants, one was carrying a luggage bag, the other was carrying a cosmetic case, and the other was always paying attention to the surrounding environment to open the way for Miao Xiu.

Even so, he was still the same as what he had seen before, except that he was a little taller, and his face was still very delicate. Few men can be called beautiful, but he can be called this word.Compared with before, his figure is much thinner.

But even so, I still don't like this guy.

His face is too feminine and lacks masculinity.From the past, I didn't like his appearance, and when I saw him now, I hated him even more.Thinking of those dirty thoughts he had towards me in the early years, it wasn't a very good mood, it was a mess.

Wanting to walk away, the man raised the smile on the corner of his mouth and smiled at me faintly, with a very gentle face.

Later, Miao Xiu followed his mother to visit my parents, and from then on, the relationship with him was forced to be linked again.

As a popular star, he is always free to ask me out, or appear in front of me, and then have dinner together as a matter of course.What problems do I encounter, as long as he can solve them, even if I don't ask him, he doesn't know where to get the news, and immediately reaches out to help me solve the difficulties.

Such a good person, logically, I should be very grateful to him, and then restore our good brother situation with him.Unfortunately, my brain has not been very bright, and instead I hate him and do a lot of stupid things to him.

Later, he, who has always been good-tempered, called me one day.He only said a few words on the phone, but I will never see him again, no matter how much I regret it.

I always thought that I knew Miao Xiu very well, and because of my ten-year friendship with him, I knew him better than his parents.

In my opinion, a person with a generous and gentle personality would never do such a thing.But when he left my sight forever in an extremely extreme way, I was completely dumbfounded.

Or, I have never known Miao Xiu.

Christmas Eve, December 24th.Miao Xiu jumped down from the 26th floor of the Regal Hotel and lost her breath in front of me.

Before, he was still standing in front of the hotel window, smiling at me gently, just like before, but the next second he restrained his smile, stiffened his body and bid farewell to this world.

His death was reported day and night by the mass media, even black and white.There are those who sympathize with him and those who criticize him.After his career fell to the bottom, he became popular again in the entertainment industry in another way.His records, his film and television works have become classics along with him.

Since the death of Miao Xiu, I have not been able to sleep well, and I have dreams all night long.The content of the dream is all about Miaoxiu.

The reason why I am like this is all my own fault.

I never felt that I did anything wrong. It wasn't until Miao Xiu looked at me with a determined expression for the first time that I understood something.I seem to be doing something really wrong.

Miao Xiu's career will have problems, and it is also thanks to me.His image has always been very healthy. Seeing that he was in the limelight, my buddies kidnapped him to make some pornographic films to make some money.Instead of stopping, I even taught that buddy to threaten him with his most important mother.The person who never gave in easily didn't say anything at that moment, just nodded and clapped.His fans were surprised. Afterwards, negative voices rebutted and accused him appeared, and the voices condemning Miao Xiu became louder and louder.His advertising appointment was gone, and he was even hidden by the brokerage company.

Even so, he still didn't say anything to me, and he was still as good to me as before.

Seeing his forced smile, I still evilly guessed how angry he would be when he knew the mastermind behind the scenes.

After the kidnapping incident, Miao Xiu's mother had a bad heart. She stayed in the hospital for several months, but in the end she couldn't be rescued, and she died in the middle of the night.

I watched Miao Xiu lose weight day by day, and then lay on the bed, lethargic and lethargic.

Seeing that his life was worse than death, I suddenly lost interest in tricking him, turned around and left, drew a clear line with him again, and continued to live my life as a young master. Who would have thought that Miao Xiu would know the whole thing So much so that he didn't want to see me in such a disgusting way again, and he was so disgusted that he said goodbye with death.

Although I am heartless, when a person dies in front of me, I am not as unconscious as a piece of wood. Besides, this person is still my childhood sweetheart. No matter how much I hate him, it is the same thing. Fake.

After that day, I crawled home in a daze, passed out at the door, and slept for two weeks.Every night, Miao Xiu jumped down from the 26th floor, his face covered with blood, and it kept repeating in my dreams, until now.

I finally realized, what is guilt, what is regret, what is hate.